E-Mails 2010

Sunday, September 26, 2010

9-24-10 Me to Babe
Hi Babe:

Want to share a story with you of a man I met with the other day, that in his own way, he has affected me in my life. This is a story about a man in his late 70s who lives alone in a one-bedroom condominium, and whose wife has passed about five years ago. After ringing the doorbell, he opened the door, and I faced an old man with a dingy dirty white T-shirt. My first thought was, this is not going to be a good appointment. I felt this might be one of those situations, that people are not clean, they don't take care of themselves, and you know me, I do not want to be sitting among filth. However, as I walked into the guy’s condominium; he had decent furniture, nice tile floor, and from what I could see, which was the living room, dining area and kitchen, it was fairly decent and not dirty. I sat down at the dining room table to discuss with him about the benefits of a reverse mortgage, as I always do with everybody. After talking to him for almost a half hour, to 45 minutes, I noticed that there was a double picture frame, one of those that fold like a book on the table. It wasn't facing me so I did not notice the pictures in it. But after our discussion about the mortgage was over, the gentleman’s, name is Vincent Ciano, that's when he told me about his wife passing five years earlier. Since that time, he has had very little motivation to live, and to continue on with his life. He showed me the pictures in the frame, and they were easily taken in the 1940s early 50s. He spoke about how much he loved his wife, and what she meant to him. He told me a about their life together before they got married, and about their 63 years of marriage. As part of the conversation I told him that he was very lucky for having had such a wonderful relationship with a woman, his partner, during those years. He told me, that he was blessed for the time that they were together, things they did, places they visited, and yes, even the memories they shared. He mentioned that after her death he had written an article for a publication which was read by a woman who contacted him to give him praise about the article, the style of writing and the way he was able to put thoughts to paper. During the conversation with this woman, he mentioned about his wife, just like he had mentioned it to me, I suppose he talks to anyone and everyone who will listen, so he can keep the memory of his wife fresh and alive. She convinced him to put his thoughts and experiences on paper, which he did. This woman took all this information and made it into a book which she had published for him. He was also asked to put some of his thoughts and experiences from the book on some web site on the Internet. This I'm not sure how it developed but he got many, many responses. Anyway, I told him that his life story, or part of what he told me about it, was very exciting and the thought he was able to put it in writing and turn it into a book was fantastic; and I told him how much I loved the idea of what he did and I told him how lucky he was to have had her in his life for all those years. Then before leaving, I asked him where I could buy a copy of the book, so I could read and feel the love that he shared with his wife. With that, he went to his desk, took out a copy of the book, and proceeded to autograph it for me. I was so touched by this man's story, about his life with his wife, about the love they shared, I promised him I would read the entire book and get back to him. I believe, in the long run he will get the reverse mortgage, but that is of no consequence anymore. I will do whatever I can to help him and then some.

After I left, I went to Dunkin' Donuts to get a cup of coffee and read part of the book. Then, if I tell you I could only get to page six, because my eyes were tearing so much, that I could no longer read. Know that in those six pages, I've only read the dedication of the book of his wife, and some responses that he received to the article that he wrote on that web site I told you about, from complete strangers who read his story and had to respond to him. Later on that evening, I tried to read some more, and again only got through a couple of more pages before I was crying. I was crying, not so much for the story of his life, but for the love that is showing in the words he uses. Somehow, at some point in time, I will get through this book, as I will get through getting him a mortgage, and I hope that in the future years I can keep in touch with Vincent, and perhaps even, God willing, have you meet him. I will also, if you would like, send you the book so you can read it yourself and see just what I’m trying to say in this letter to you.

Babe, throughout our relationship, I have done some crazy things for you, like putting your picture on four credit cards, or putting your picture on a postage stamp, or naming a star after you, and getting you everything and anything that is pink (like a silly thing such as a pink knife) or have so many pictures of you throughout the house or even having your pictures on a video frame on the kitchen counter, or even something new I'm working on which is a video made up of your pictures put to music lyrics. Yet, I hope I get the inspiration in the near future to possibly write one about you, about us, about the times that we were working together, going on vacations, going shopping and even to be able to put in words what you have meant to me in my life, how much I have loved you. Maybe if I put this in writing, maybe after I'm gone you will understand what you meant to me and what we have missed by not being together: it's a shame, it's a shame that we have even missed one day apart. But maybe that's what I will have to do; is follow in Vincent's footsteps and find out how to get something published to leave it for you and your kids and whoever you want, so that everyone can know just how much I love you.

Me.

Oh, I forgot to tell you he has a Dachshund dog. A male, 13 years old. Called Rambo. And they live for each other, now.


9-21-10 Me to Babe
Babe:
Thanks for the beautiful card and its message. As you can guess, I made a wish! Can't tell you what it is, because it may not come true, but its a good guess what it could be.

I'm waiting for it to come true!!!!!!! God is with me.

Thanks again, and thank Mike also. I miss you guys.
Me


9-19-10 Babe to Me
Hi,
Just want to let you know I'm a ding dong.....I sent you a birthday ecard ....but you're going to receive it today instead of Tuesday.......sorry. I'll call you on Tuesday to wish you a Happy Birthday....Me


9-18-10 Me to Babe
Hi Babe:

Its Saturday night, and I am bored. So, Im working on a map of Vegas to send to John. In it, its highlighted the different areas and what they are know for, good areas are marked, and bad crime areas are defined. Also, there will be a list of good neighborhoods with each zip code for him to look up individual zip areas on that web site I sent you a few days ago. All he has to do is log onto the web site and enter the zip code he wants to look up, and the available houses or condos will show up.

Please pass this on to him. It will be a couple of days to get everythign ready and I'll mail it to him. And, please, let me know if you got your computer yet.
Me


9-16-10 Me to Babe
Hi Babe:

Please tell me if you have gotten back your computer? Is it working perfectly right for you?

The reason I'm writing is to share with you a real estate web site I will be sending John for him to see what is selling here in Vegas. With this site he can view houses, or condos, and by individual zip codes. I'm working on sending him a map which has the zip codes and my estimation of which ones he should look into and which ones to stay away from. The web site is: TeamTaylorLV.com the agent which he will eventually deal with is Spencer Walden. I'll send him this info over the weekend, or you can share it with him.

Must tell you the weather in the evenings is just perfect. You know me, I can't easily say good things about anything, but the weather and Vegas are just great. I am trying to take short walks at night to breathe that "fresh air" you always wanted me to take in. Because of my foot, I must be careful and not over do it, but its just so nice, its indescribable, and it must get done. I wish we could take these walks together.

Write soon,
Me


9-11-10 Me to Babe
Babe:

You are so, so beautiful!

Me



9-11-10 Me to Babe
Hi again Babe:

There is a product called "Great Stuff" sold in Home Depot & Lowes that comes in a can with a plastic nozzle which you attach to it, and it sprays a kind if liquid foam which expands upon hitting the air. Its purpose is to spray this stuff into opening from outside into the house, around pipes entering the home, in fact anything you may think a mouse can get into. Spray a bit at a time because this thing expands to fill the hole and is water repellent. After it dries into a solid you can cut so its even with the hole or pipe.

The can cost about $3.88, and it may help close up those pesky holes with are like highways for these tiny creatures. Try it outside before applying it so you (or Mike) can get the hang of the spray, and how much to apply, before actually plugging any holes. If you need any more information on this, call me.

See, I write almost every day even though I may not send them all. And, thanks for your kind words about my "rotundness", although I am not happy with the way I feel.

Write soon,
Me


9-11-10 BAbe to Me
HI,I saw the pictures. Michael and I both agreed that you haven't changed ...maybe....a few more pounds, but your face looks exactly the same. Me


9-9-10 Me to Babe Pix2
Sorry, but the pictures did not go through the first time. I'm trying something new to get them to you. Hope this works.

I took these myself using a tripod this weekend at Red Rock. This place is near here (15 min) off Charleston Blvd. The place is just beautiful. You would love it also.
Me


9-9-10 Me to Babe Pix
Sorry, but the pictures did not go through the first time. I'm trying something new to get them to you. Hope this works.

I took these myself using a tripod this weekend at Red Rock. This place is near here (15 min) off Charleston Blvd. The place is just beautiful. You would love it also.
Me


9-8-10 Babe to Me
Hi,I read your email. I definitely do not want another credit card. I was able to get a Capital One card with a $500.00 limit so I keep that in case of emergency. Please don't get any cards in my name at all. I'm working very hard to get out of the credit situation and I'm doing OK. Thanks. I'll let John know about the age limit at the park, unless you've already emailed him. Thanks again for everything and all your help for John and Melanie. Talk to you soon.
Me


9-8-10 Me to Babe
HI Babe:
Must say, your picture has made a big hit at work. Since I placed it on my desktop on the computer, some of the people at work have seen it. They also noticed how differrent I was acting at work, so I told them about your picture and what it means to me.

Anyway, the reason for todays email, is to tell you that I have a credit card I can send you for you to have. I know you are saying, "no", now, but think about it for a minute. Can you use one in case of an emergency? Or if you need something to get and don't have the cash at the time, then you can use it. I'm ordering one in your name, so if you say, yes, then I'll send it to you. If you say no, well, I don't know what to do with a card with your name on it. What do you think? Are you using the PH or he F, in your name now? If it the F, then I will have to change my insurance since its under PH.

Oh, and don't worry about charging anything, remember, its only money. I can handle it, especially if you need it, want it, or deserve it!

I found out about the age limit in this park. The minimum age to live here is now 35 years old. That will help John make a better decision. The one thing, Im going to do in the next day or so, is to go to a Realtor and see if I can put my license with him, and be able to get Listings over to John.

Okay, enough for today.
Me



9-6-10 Me to Babe
Hi Babe:
And, you said, you did not takle good pictues. Thank you again for sending me this beautiful picture of you. If you look this good on film, WOW, how you must look in real life. Now, I add, your special smell, and pretend to touch your magnificent skin, and the feel of your lucious lips. My compliments to whoever took the picture.

The lighting is just right. The angle is perfect. The focus is just right. The eyes in the corner, looking at the camera. The model is gorgeous. The smirk in your smile is to die for. And, you are beutiful! Guess you can say, I can't stop looling at it. Oh, yes, its now my wallpaer on my phone.

When I come down from my "high", I will send you one of me. I have been taking a few of myself to give you, but its in no way going to compare to yours. First, Im not a pretty as you! Im getting older, you are not. I have gained a few (okay, a lot) of pounds, you have not changed. My hair is grayer, your is blonder. Also, just got a haircut so its very short for practicallity. Yours, although a bit shorter, it looks beautiful. If I did not know you, I would fall in love with you all over again, immediately!

Thanks for giving me Christmas in September. Should I ask for more?
Me

9-5-10 Babe to Me Her Pix

Hi, Here;s the picture I had sent by text yesterday. Michael told me how to send it from my phone in an email. Thanks again for helping John and Melanie.
Me

Thursday, September 09, 2010

9-6-10 Me to Babe
Hi Babe:

And, you said, you did not takle good pictues. Thank you again for sending me this beautiful picture of you. If you look this good on film, WOW, how you must look in real life. Now, I add, your special smell, and pretend to touch your magnificent skin, and the feel of your lucious lips. My compliments to whoever took the picture.

The lighting is just right. The angle is perfect. The focus is just right. The eyes in the corner, looking at the camera. The model is gorgeous. The smirk in your smile is to die for. And, you are beutiful! Guess you can say, I can't stop looling at it. Oh, yes, its now my wallpaer on my phone.

When I come down from my "high", I will send you one of me. I have been taking a few of myself to give you, but its in no way going to compare to yours. First, Im not a pretty as you! Im getting older, you are not. I have gained a few (okay, a lot) of pounds, you have not changed. My hair is grayer, your is blonder. Also, just got a haircut so its very short for practicallity. Yours, although a bit shorter, it looks beautiful. If I did not know you, I would fall in love with you all over again, immediately!

Thanks for giving me Christmas in September. Should I ask for more?
Me


9-5-10 Babe to Me

Hi, Here;s the picture I had sent by text yesterday. Michael told me how to send it from my phone in an email. Thanks again for helping John and Melanie.
Me
Picture included

9-3-10 Me to Babe
Hi Babe:

No picture of Dukey or you. I don't know where they went, but not here. Just wanted you to know.

As you may know, I did send John a letter, he responded, and I wrote back with more information about your Mom's park and other neighborhoods around Vegas.

I also wanted to write to Mike to ask him to come, maybe in November, but I don't have his email address. If you want, I will write to him inviting him to come out, but please send me his address.

Me


8-30-10 Me to Babe

Hi Babe: Again, I must tell you how happy you made me by calling the other day. I am still enjoying every minute of it. For a second, I was hoping you were calling for me to come and pick you up. Its all set, you know. I would fly to NY to pick you up, and there will be a big rental car waiting to pick you up at your house, pack lightly, we will buy everything you will need on the way here. Oh, yes, there will also be a car trailer to haul your Mustang with us. (no mileage on it). And when you get here, in case you don’t want to live with me; since Genovese is selling her place, I can buy it and live right next door to you (until you change your mind). Then if your Mother wants to return in the future, she can have her house back, and you can move in with me next door. How is that for a plan? Everything is covered. Did I miss anything? Let me keep dreaming!Genovese is trying to sell her place, and as I had said she started at $39,000, lowered it to $25,000. And now is willing to sell it to investors for less than $10,000. What a waste! If it wasn’t for the high maintenance fee of over $700+ per month, I would suggest to buy it from her and rent it out (till you want to come), but I am afraid the fees are so high there would be no profit in renting it out. There was the show Pawn Starts on Saturday, and I saw it. The guy is smart and a good businessman. What he doesn’t know, he knows someone who does. What I didn’t like is that the people coming in to sell their stuff don’t get anything near what they want for their items. And, when he asks what they would take for an item, he answers back with a lower number, no matter what it was. Personally, I am very biased against pawn shops because when I was little, my mother had to pawn my grandmothers diamond ring in order to get money to live with, and the offer she got $8,000 in the 60’s, was one third the actual cost of the ring. This story has stayed with me all my life, and it hurts to see people in need taken advantage of, even though I understand it is their business and they are entitled to make a profit. But, it still hurts. The guys are just what you said, and act stupid in a funny way. Guess what is coming here next month? The feast of San Gennaro. Its really a carnival type show every year here, but its expensive to get in, but the food, well it should be Italian. I remember your mother saying there was no Italian bread here, well she was right. They don’t know what Italian bread is. The closest is French bread. No comparison. Boy, do I miss your Italian home cooking! The things we could do here together.That two page letter I told you I was writing a bit each day, well, that’s on the back burner for a while. I am going to enjoy your call and our conversation for the next month or more, then when I start to get depressed again, I will revive it and maybe I’ll send it some day. It wasn’t too negative, just me having a one way conversation with you, about us, of course. You know, one of the smartest things you asked me to do, was to promise you not to call you. If I hadn’t, I would be calling you every week, maybe even every night at bedtime. How did you get to be so smart? I do need to get a hobby other than you.If you get a chance, share with me how you see your future? What are your expectations as you get older?
Me


8-27-10 Me to Babe
Hi Babe:
Just a quick email, to thank you for the call yesterday. It made my whole month! In fact, I am still walking on cloud nine! And, thinking about you, (alone out there) having to deal with everything by yourself. I should be killing those mice for you.
Me

I'll write again soon.
Me


8-20-10 Me to Babe

Hi Babe:

Well...what presents did you get for your birthday? Share. Share. Share.

Don't really know what to think about your last letter. I do understand you keep telling me to go on with my life. Not to wait for you. All the negative things, I don't want to hear, but the one thing I need to hear, you don't tell me. Although I do get it that you have moved on with your life, and there may not be any hope of ever being together again on your part, but why can't you be very specific and tell me how you feel about me?

Okay, let me address this another way. We have been together a great portion of our lives. Longer than many marriages. Yet, I can't believe the mis-communication between us. Let me start with me. I have always loved you. Not once have I wanted to be with anyone else. I have so far, waited for the past 5 years for you to make a decision if you want to be with me in your old age. And, even told you I would continue to wait. If you were facing me right now, I could honestly tell you, I have not gone out with anyone in the past 5 years. I can say that, because I know how much you value the truth. And, that is statement is the truth.

Now, although you are mi angel", I know you have gone out with some guys. I don't care if you have slept with them or not (at one time, I thought I would). What I do care is, how you feel about me. One thing I know about you is that you will hurt yourself in trying not to hurt someone else. I know you don't want to hurt me. I know you would rather see me "happy" with someone else, at your own expense. But, and ts a big BUT, you are not doing yourself or me any good service by keeping the truth of how you feel to yourself.

Now, that said. If you are in love with someone else, fine. I can deal with that. I cannot say I will not continue to love you, or care about you, but I can find peace in my heart that you are doing what you want. That you are happy. That someone you care for is taking care of you.

Please don't tell me to find someone else, or not to wait for you, or that you are happy with your life, if you are not. I will beg you to tell me the truth (your most precious requirement) and then I can move on. Well, actually, just exist the rest of my life.

Why has it been so difficult for you to put in words how you feel? What is happening in your life? What your expectations for a future are? Why? I thought we could talk about anything to each other?

If you refuse to answer this letter, I guess I will give up asking for your feelings, for your heart, for your love. I will interpret it as you don't care about me anymore, and you will never have a need for me ever. That your decision to stay in NY, and be with someone else is your preference. And, that I should take it as a sign to forget about you.

Please answer this letter. I don't want to go through life not knowing the truth. Without you.
Me.